I lost all my genius that night.
And all the colors of my mind
ran away,
and fell
to an indiscriminate gray.
All my exploding canvases
woke up and decided
to go away.
And all my poems are now written in a sad,
empty light.
No more fight.
No more sight.
No more little smiles;
a sad broken heart,
in the emptiness of night.
My Toulouse-Lautrec died in a train wreck.
My Dylan Thomas drank himself to death.
And oh, my Van Gogh
eventually gave up,
realizing his Gauguin had gone.
But more than that,
My Beethoven,
stuck his head in that
Sylvia Plath
“I don’t care anymore” oven.
The music that comes from
your soul
is so unlike mine.
Because I know
it’s all a matter of time.
I don’t think you should bandage my wrists anymore
because my planet, baby,
has been rocked to its fatal core.
Hope always falls down and gets hurt.
Spinning around, I fall down,
face down in the dirt.